Resurfacing

Its been a long while. I needed a break from the posting thing because I was dedicating way too much time to correspondence. To posting. To telling stories about my everyday life that which was going nowhere in terms of what I wanted. Stories of want rather than have done. Think of it as a 'shit or get off the pot' kind of thing. I was looking for ways to change my life while repeating the same routine. I also felt constantly obligated to keep checking the comment sections of others to see if they responded so they wouldn't feel forgotten... or forcing myself to drag my eyes through posts that don't interest me simply so I could make an educated comment so that they would read my posts.

I'm such a whore for attention its silly. Without an audience I feel no need to write. I'm trying not to give a shit about that anymore.

I have updated the songs on the side bar too. Check them out :)

Changes. And there have been many and there are still many to go. First and most importantly to me, I have moved in with my long time girlfriend, Mightydoll. She and I now share a 2 bedroom apartment and are also sharing the responsibility of her children with her ex-husband rather peacefully. I have not always been certain to her in my plans but I am now and intend to remain that way. She has become my best friend and I want to share my life with her. It fills my chest with joy to know that she wishes the same. Her dog and my cat live not in harmony but definitely in peace. I have a thing about vanishing from places. It is a rather romantic idea to me. She has a goal to vanish to Ireland for a few months. Know what? She wants me to go too!! We can wander off together into the elsewhere for a while. I really like that dream. I believe we are planning for this in the future but I don't know when. I will bring my laptop, ipod, camera and clothes. Nothing else.

Imagine. Ireland. I can't do it. I've never been to Europe. In fact, I have only just left the North American continent for the first time last week. My physical experience of this supposedly tiny world is rather limited as of yet. Anyway,...






I love you very much, Mightydoll. You are my friend. My lover. My reflection. My voice of reason. And best of all, simply yourself. Thank you.



Love,
Hubris

Rich arrogant people suck

Your wealth doesn't make you this way so its nothing against your income. Which is more than I can say for your point of view.

Seriously. You don't like my income? That we can afford to live here? My girlfriend's clothes? Her hyper dog you seem to think is a pit bull because you're too self-rightious to read a fucking book of breeds? Her children's clothes? Them being home because you're to arrogant to realize they aren't poorly cared for but rather their school starts at 12:30 because THEY'RE ONLY FIVE YEARS OLD!?

Fuck you. I hope you choke. I'm serious. Please kill yourself. Do it before you procreate.

YOU'RE the fuckass in the Mercedes who nearly hits me on the way to work because you don't even realize that cyclists exist.

YOU'RE the selfish bitch who blows money on expensive makeup and TV's and then complains about the homeless.

YOU'RE the lemming watching TV news believing everything it tells you.

YOU'RE the reason your child arms himself to the teeth to visit his teachers and peers.

YOU'RE the problem with pit bulls, not the pit bulls.

YOU'RE who I see when I am fed up with weaving through your polluting traffic like you're nothing but brainless cattle.

YOU'RE the customer who knows they are wrong but insists on being coddled because you spend so much at a given establishment.

YOU'RE the reason so many highly educated professional immigrants are working their asses off in your service industry.





Do I think I am better than you? I fucking do now.







oh yeah, one more thing.

When the revolution comes, when you are alone at the top behind your security gates in your million dollar home, when the gap between yourself and the rest of the classes has gotten too wide to measure, when your economy comes crashing down to respect the other sway of the pendulum, I will be there.

I will watch it burn. I will watch it crumble. I will watch you break with tears of desparation. My family and I will give you shelter and food as we feed on and devour all that used to be yours.

Its time to evolve.